Sicko Makes Me Sad… Very Very Sad

I nearly had to cry watching Sicko. The movie was telling the story of woman who at 22 developed cervical cancer and was denied the required treatment because her insurance company told her she was too young to have cervical cancer.

And the stories of the people who are now mourning the dead relatives because their insurance companies told them their illnesses were not life-threatening.

When the woman who used to work for a health care company was in front of a panel telling them that she knows she was responsible for the deaths of people by denying them the assistance they needed I felt she should be strung up. I mean she knows that she and others like her are killing people every day to make money for their companies.

I worry about the day when we will follow the American lead and fully privatise our health system. And that is the way we were heading, I hope that plan is now out of the way.

I mean my little sister in recent years has had some quite serious health scares, pertaining to pre-cancerous growths in her cervix and other problems in the area, this has been going on for a few years and she is due to go in for more exploratory surgery early next month.

She has private health insurance, and because of that she has been able to get through the system a little faster than had she gone in as a completely private patient. But thankfully her insurance company is paying the cost of some of her medical costs. But she could have also gone in as a public patient and paid nothing for her treatment.

Had my sister not been treated she may well be gone now, and if there is anything that can make me sad and incredibly mad, it’s the idea that I would lose my little sister to something so lame, especially if it could have been treated and she was denied because she didn’t have or couldn’t afford insurance.

Poor Americans, you really do need a revolution. Please have it now so our government stops following you.

I want to take your picture

In fact I want to take pictures all the time, every day, all day… if I could, it would be my job. And yeah I know I can, but I also can’t.

I can’t afford to stop doing what I’m doing in the hope of making something of my photography. I can’t stop looking around and seeing what others are doing and being amazed by what they get out of their cameras. I can’t afford to do the course I want to do that should help me better understand that one thing I may be missing that keeps me from living and doing what I want to do.

I feel into web development many, many, many years ago. I’ve been doing it for fifteen years now and to be completely honest I’m growing tired of it.

I’m not tired of the technology and I’m not really tired of doing it, I’m tired of spending my time being told by so many other people HOW I should do it. I’m tired of external consultants offering their services and advising companies that the way their developers are doing the job is in some way wrong when it’s not, it’s perfectly right. I’m tired of not being able to do my own thing and watching it grow and flourish.

Photography is a creative outlet, a way to capture the world as you see it. And while I know that I’ll still face the challenge of having to do things that other people tell me to, I’ll always be in charge of the image on film.

Unlike web development, in photography only one person gets to push the shutter release.

I see some of the stuff that we pay for at work, as far as photography goes, and I see how much we pay for it, and I know I can do it better.

I’ve never had any serious formal training in anything, I’m a serious JOAT, Jack Of All Trades, Master of None! I know a lot about a lot of things, but I don’t know everything about anything.

I know I’m ranting and raving and half of this probably doesn’t make sense, but I’m pressed for time and needed to get it out there.

There are things I have to do for myself, and I guess for now I’ll have to do them by myself… no sense complaining though, my lot is of my own making.